A Wish I Forgot to Make

Beginnings are hard for me
I erase too much
And then it doesn't flow right
How to get from A to B is a challenge in itself
So let's just skip that step
I leave my plants in a drought and my room messy for too long
Do I find comfort in the chaos?
I'm not sure,
I know I do find something in order but I don't know what
I found an eye for you
I could sew it on and you could see
But you've been missing it for so long it almost looks strange
I keep floating back
Over and over
My teeth are too straight
It shouldn't matter
I have too many library books sitting on my shelf for anything to matter
But it does
And I catch myself watching for you in the tinted windows of passing cars as I walk home
Clothes soaked and heart waterlogged
The streets were covered in confetti
Who would clean it up?
And I wonder
If your invitation
I've so long awaited
Is an answer to a wish I didn't make
forgot to make
On that shooting star last night
It's hard to remember to wish on a star when you are feeling so close to the one who threw it across the sky
I have a bruised purple finger
A reminder that physical pain is real
And so are car doors
I feel I have so many blemishes
But really I am more whole than most
And my selfishness shames me
I paint my lips black
Maybe 16 will be the year I can add another needle
Olive branches on tan skin
Six dollar shirts
A sandwich I've never tasted
And experiencing a place I've never been
I wish I could stop
Living the present in the future
Why can't I just let it go?
Maybe you help me stay in the present
Or maybe you just help me forget the present, past, and future exist
You'd think I was philosophical
But really I wear octopus pajamas while writing overthought poetry that I try too hard to make sound under-thought
And I'm just as tired as you
Bandaids don't stop the pain, they just hide it
So everyone knows something hurts
But nobody knows what
Except for you.

Why is every poem I write like a million years long? Sorry guys.

Sketchbook Work

It feels like I just published a sketchbook post, but in reality my last one was so long ago. I have completed a multitude of new artwork in my sketchbook to share with you, so enjoy and comment your favorite pieces :)

flowers in your eyes ((I like this concept--maybe and OC? Who knows.))

a little art journal

Twenty-One Pilots Holding on to You-- this song is my jam right now guys

Mermaid ((of course))

Random girl


more art journal

purple hair

even more art journal wow I have a lot

Halloween art journal yay! So much spook xD


Hello hello awesome readers!

First of all-- I am aware that it has been way too long since I last posted. I had midterms last week, and was quite crunched as far as time went. I missed you all so so much, and I hope to be able to post more now that those tests are all over because I have so many posts to do!

And that brings us to this post--


For those of you who are not yet aware, Bastille is my favorite band. I was very very excited (like freaking out every day excited) to have the opportunity to see them, and it was such a crazy experience. I was jumping up and down and filming every song and singing at the top of my lungs. There was once point I remember specifically when they were playing Fake It, my favorite song in the new album, and I felt a thrill go through me as I realized I was actually there, listening to my favorite songs live. It was incredible.

But enough of me jabbering away- I have some videos and photos for you to enjoy :)

((or check this video out on my youtube --maybe better quality?--  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iyjtNqbCsB4

The Greek Myth Book Tag

I'm back and with another tag!! I keep getting tagged for all these sweet book-y writer-y tags it's awesome and I'm so excited about all of them. This one is thanks to the superb Ellie who runs a rad blog go check her out. So anyways here is the tag!

Zeus/Jupiter- God of the Sky+Thunder, King of Gods: Favorite Book (Choose Your Own Category)

To Kill A Mockingbird is by far one of the best books I've ever read- it was just so so good.

Hera/Juno- Goddess of Marriage and Family: Cutest Book Couple

Percabeth. Sorry-- you knew this post wasn't going to happen without at least one Heroes of Olympus book I mean come on it is the Greek Myth tag

Poseidon/Neptune- God of the Seas and Earthquakes: Book that Drowned you in Feels

I still haven't fully recovered.

Athena/Minerva- Goddess of Wisdom, Handicraft, and Strategic Warfare: Series with the Best World-Building

The world in this series was great as well as the plot and structure and everything about it.

Hades/Pluto- God of the Underworld: Favorite Book with a Dark, Ominous Plot

Stephen King is a master at freaking people out, and this book was spooky for sure.

Aphrodite/Venus- Goddess of Love and Beauty: Favorite Book Cover on a 2016 Release

I have yet to read this one as it just came out, but is that cover not totally epic?

Ares/Mars: God of War and Bloodshed: Most Violent Book You've Ever Read

There was a lot of assassination and just generally disturbing things that happened in these books, especially this one. But they were superb books and I love them and would recommend them, just fair warning.

Hephaestus/Vulcan- God of Blacksmiths and Fire: Biggest Fictional Crush

Haha sorry to double up on the Percy Jackson references but Leo Valdez...He's great

Artemis/Diana- Goddess of the Hunt and Virginity: Favorite Heroine

Nasuada definitely wins this one-- she essentially carried this whole series on her back and saved everyone. She is amazing. ((and there is also not any good fan art of her I tried))

Phoebus Apollo/Apollo- God of Lights and Healing: Sequel Book that Redeemed it's Series

I don't know if I could go so far as to say it 'redeemed' the series but at least it closed it up as neatly as possible and left it alone for good. 

Hermes/Mercury- Messenger God of Thieves and Commerce: Book with the Best Message

This book is just incredible. It changed my whole life. I highly, highly recommend it.

Hestia/Vesta- Goddess of Hearth and Home: Most Relatable Book ((Or Book that is Closest to Your Heart in General))

This book has meant a lot to me for a really long time. It's sort of just my comfort book, the book that I turn to when I just need something warm and familiar and beautiful to read. This is that book for me.

Demeter/Ceres- Goddess of Fertility and Agriculture: Favorite Bookish Setting

The Night Circus!! This book's whole vibe is just too fun.

Dionysus/Bacchus- God of Wine and Celebration: 2016 Book You are Most Anticipating

I'm so excited! Finally!

Whew, that was a lot of books. Thanks again Ellie for the tag, I had a ton of fun with this. I would like to tag:

and anybody else who feels like participating!

Thanks everyone <3